Dear Annie: I don’t understand why people see me as a threat. I have no devious plans or intentions. I’ve never been in a fight. Throughout my life, I’ve been bullied — from elementary school all the way through college — by the same girl. Despite everything, I’ve always tried to help others. I feed the homeless, even though I am homeless myself.
I feel like I carry a curse from my mother. She has never truly liked me and has done her best to tear me down, even now. I never had the chance to be close to my dad. When people listen to her lies, they often turn against me, and that hurts deeply.
I am in constant emotional and physical pain. Sometimes, I hurt myself and run away from those who try to love me because I don’t know how to accept love or support. People lie about me to gain things or to manipulate situations, and I feel exhausted trying to explain myself or clear up the misconceptions others have of me.
I am begging for help. I can’t do this alone anymore. Please, I need support, understanding and compassion. I want to heal and find peace. I just don’t know how without help. — Please Help
Dear Please Help: You’ve been through more than most people could bear, and it’s no wonder you feel exhausted and alone. The fact that you’re reaching out shows courage — and that you want to heal.
There are people and organizations ready to help you. You can call or text 988, the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline, for free 24/7 support. If you’re in danger, the National Domestic Violence Hotline (1-800-799-7233) can help you find a safe place to stay and access caseworkers who understand what you’re going through.
For ongoing emotional support, you can reach out to the National Alliance on Mental Illness at 1-800-950-6264 or by texting “NAMI” to 62640. They’ll listen and connect you to counseling options, even if you can’t afford therapy right now.
You’ve already shown compassion to others in need. Please allow others to show the same compassion to you.
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